I never felt she wanted me or love me

Jan 14, 2021 | survivor-stories

I was abused by my Grandfather from 2 years old to 7 when I told my Mother finally. But although I was taken to a child psychologist by my Mother when a teacher told her I was clinically depressed, she told me not to tell them about Grandpa because that was a secret and our family would be destroyed if I said anything. I spent years battling depression. I did not know how to relate to men and was victimized and raped in my early 30’s. Luckily I married very early at 16 and my husband was 18 – we have been married 58 years. I am 74 now. But my own Mother, who I learned had also been raped by her own father called me the daughter of the devil. She treated me like I was damaged and more harm came from my Mothers reaction. I understand that she was also a victim. But my father had abandoned my mother when she was 8 months pregnant with my sister. I was 2 and my brother was 3 – she chose to give me to her father and my step grandmother to be raised when she knew what kind of person her father was.  I went back to live with her when I was 7 and she remarried but I never felt she wanted me or loved me.

What advice would offer to encourage others?

I pray to God to hear the cries of children and somehow interfere, somehow send help, and somehow rescue these innocent babies.

Rivka Zorea, Survivor

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